Author: kyrstenhodge_7ltrfk

that’s between you and your god

and me and my 

teenage mutant ninja turtles

because what you did to me

i forced them to learn

smashing plastic bodies together

donatello wrestling raphael

leonardo pinning down

both bebop and rocksteady

and me confused 

from figuring out 

why their cowabunga sneers 

suddenly felt so empty to me

and why their frozen faces reveal

a pain that even undressing 

april o’neil won’t fix

in my memories, i remember that

i’m just how i always imagined i was

my body, confusing emptiness for nothingness

and my heart, confusing sympathy for empathy

but either way i’m going to feel something tonight

because i want to lay prone and powerless

and finally feel

and finally feel

and finally

feel —

finally.